Loathing in Sickness...

The pains of when I get sick...

Today, I came across an interesting piece of info. As I was visiting the doctor checking out my latest respiratory problem, he told me that I had pneumonia when I was 6 yrs-old!
This important new bit of information about my medical history helps me to understand so much...

Every year for many years now, I have been susceptible to getting chronic respiratory illnesses such as bronchitis, throat infection, chest infection, or laryngitis! Annually, due in part, to my occupation (I'm in a yeller's profession), I also face the possibility of losing my voice! Being around children all day and being in an environment where germ phobics are seriously threatened each & every day (I don't know how ppl. w/ OCD can possibly survive!?!)...

In my current state, I struggle for breath, coughing like I feel I'm going to hack out my insides sorry for laying bare the yucky details, sore throat, don't even want to reveal what I hack out, headaches, body temperature changes almost as fast as my mood (ha ha!), feelin' sorry for myself, a complete halt to my regular routines, [shutdown]...I feel helpless & annoyed that I'm in this state...

I took 1.5 days off this past week from school I have 140 sick days so it's tempting just to use ALL those up! Ha! It's frustrating being in this state of sickness because I feel helpless & imprisoned...doing nothing & being confined to hibernation...sleep, rest, doing very low key things, no work (good thing)...

I'm missing the gym like crazy...I've missed 2 classes so far & am in danger of missin' Monday's double the pleasure classes if I don't feel better by then.
...When you're not yourself & when you're not engaging in the things you love to do, it does suck...it's not great also to be down & out...HOWEVER, I'm thankful that it will hopefully be only a matter of time before I get better & fully recover...Often, sickness visits me in the guise of sickness...to remind me in a powerful way that I need to take time out to relax & for my life to take a little-hiatus-of- a-break...Did I mention already that I'm feelin' sorry for myself?

Until then, I can take advantage & rent some movies, Facebook, blog, read...& feel sorry for myself..haha heehee...

Until next time, thanks for reading...